In which I am positive spring has not come early

As I watched the snow melt last week at a blistering thirty-five degrees, and Groundhog Day skeetered on through, I thought for sure that Spring might present its pretty little self early.  Tulips and green grass and and tree buds, oh my!  Just what I needed!  A quick winter!

 

What the hell was I on?

We live in the Midwest.  And we are less than ten days into the month of February.

 

If you're going to marry anybody, it should definitely be your best friend.  The brides at their wedding site.  Seven months to our their big day, if you're keeping track.

Two weeks ago we chose the agency which will conduct the Homestudy for our adoption (our actual adoption agency is based out of another state, and your homestudy agency needs to be within your own state) and it has been a paperchase of an extreme kind ever since.  Before our meeting downstate next week, Kevin and I must assemble financial documents of all sorts, write essays and provide family histories three generations back, provide documentation of child and pet immunizations alike and make it through seventeen kinds of background checks.  (Fine. Five. But it feeeeels like seventeen, finding that fine line between smashing the prints OFF of my fingers, and sharing my fingerprints with the FBI, and all.) 

I must admit that the OCD part of me really enjoys assembling all of the necessary documents into neat piles and giant envelopes and plastic drawers-- and knowing that each little page brings us closer to our baby is quite exciting.  The copier we bought at the beginning of the homeschool year?  Han-dee!  Unfortunately the wintertime trips involving coats, mittens, car seat buckles and snow with three small children, again and again to retrieve this page or that, are a bit less fun than the organizing part.  Though, eh, the boys have come to love sauntering through the metal detector at the county court house by now.  Ha!

I've decided to keep a timeline for our adoption over in my sidebar, to mark the larger steps of the process.  Its something I've found so interesting as I read other bloggers who have brought their children home.

In the wee hours of tomorrow morning Marin and I will embark on a mission of a different kind: the one to figure out what has been causing hydronephrosis of her good kidney, and exactly the severity of it.  She will be given IV sedation and then radiologists will inject nuclear medicine into one of her arteries to watch it travel through her kidneys.  Up until now Marin's urologist has been watching the kidney through renal scans every few months, but at this point he felt it was time to be a bit more invasive.

I am nervous about the test tomorrow- about her being under general anesthesia for a few hours, and about the IV's and the process of going under.  It was awful when we did this last year.  But more than that, I am worried for the outcome (though, obviously, completely beyond my control.)  We made it through last year's surgery with an end in sight-- believing that she would be okay, and that it was a pretty easy fix.  One point five kidneys was totally doable in my mind, and once the surgery was over it would be smooth sailing.

I am not as easy with investigating the whole kidney we have left.  I am even less okay with the possibility of another surgery, and have a million questions to what losing another part of these important organs might mean to her future.  Not knowing is always difficult, right?  I look forward to a bucketful of answers, at least, and possibly a barrell of good news.  And sunshine and beams of rainbow colors.  Or something.

Tonight after seeing KJ and Jack off to their aunt and uncle's house for the night, in preparation for tomorrow's procedure, I enjoyed the quiet of our house for approximately twelve whole minutes.  Marin and I looked at each other, puzzled with what we should do for the next six lonely hours, and I promptly bundled her up and took her out into our latest blizzard, in a very large, far too empty vehicle.  I embraced the fact that I will always be a mother who misses her children when we are apart, no matter how badly I long for the occasional ten minutes of quiet, and I have easily come to the conclusion that a quiet house to me is everything that child-induced chaos is to the quiet-lover.  We were meant to be a large family.  I've always known it, even in moments I forgot it, and I love every time I know it more.

Please do send positive vibes in our direction, for little Sissie Pie, if you get a moment.  While I do not anticipate a hospital stay, we did end up with one last year, so who's to say what will come of tomorrow?  Sunshine and rainbows after all is said and done, I hope.

Comments

[Michelle Z]

Good luck today - keep us posted! and adoption timeline is a great idea - I love those, too :)

[Amy W]

Good luck, will be thinking of you!

[Jen L.]

Sending many, many good vibes for sweet Marin and all of you.

I love that picture of Sant and Leslie!! That gazebo is a perfect wedding location.

[Frema]

We hope so, too. Prayers for Marin.

(Also, I *love* that Sarah and Leslie are getting married at Deep River. It worked out well for Luke and me, and it will for them, too.)

[Ann]

Prayers and positive thoughts for Marin, good luck with the adoption, and you look thinner everytime you post a picture of yourself! Congrats!

[Mary]

All my love and prayers coming your way... I'll call tomorrow. Love Mar

[Nikki]

Molly, wishing you and Marin and the whole family sunshine and rainbows in abundance. Hope all went well today. Love these photos, what beautiful blue sky.

[crookedeyebrow]

Oh I will surely be thinking of the both of you!

xoxoxo

[debi]

My sweet friend, you know I will be praying for the very best of outcomes. It all sounds a bit nerve wracking but I know you will make it through as you are that kind of a mom. Something about your sentence "I love every time I know it more" made me smile a big smile. I love it and I love you.

[Laylabean]

Thinking of you today and praying all will be well. *hugs*

[SJ]

Sending you positive thoughts and best wishes...

[rkmama]

You'll do great tomorrow, Marin. We'll be thinking of you!

[Stacey]

Sending bunches of happy thoughts and prayers your way!